So much has changed it's hard to re-cap. I did indeed leave my hometown again; I couldn't stand it, I had to escape.
Three months and thousands of miles later, I came to the ultimate realization that I was running and running and running, but I could never escape myself. I had some amazing adventures. I fell in love beyond compare. I went above and beyond limits for living that I thought I had. I got pregnant (WTF!) by the man I fell in love with. I jacked UP my car in a variety of ways. I realized that running away was a mistake, and tried to go back to my parents' (for several reasons), but was shut down immediately. I was literally quite homeless for a long, bohemian, vagabond time.
I ended up back in Lexington b/c I have real friends here, good friends, and my son is here. My daughter is still with my parents in Memphis, which sucks. Not a lot is going well, but it's going, and I am trying to do better every day. I have gotten a job, and another job, and I am working on visitation with my little boy. I have a place to live with some friends who used to be neighbors, and another place to stay with an awesome friend I met going to school here. I'm right just today at approximately 18 weeks pregnant, and I am going to be having a little boy. I really wish I hadn't messed stuff up with my children though, and by leaving Memphis in June that's exactly what I did. So many things have occurred due to that decision, including the creation of a new life, that I don't know if I would go back and change it were it a possibility to do so, but I have a lot to make up for.
As far as the person I fell in love with... idiot.
So. There's my re-cap. I don't know if I will ever have time to write about my adventures on the road this past summer, but it was crazy and I had a lot of fun (and a lot of not-so-much fun, I met some amazing people that I will hold dear forever... but it's so much, I didn't even journal it like I should have, and now it's over and done with and I should have kept up with my writing more.
In any capacity, I am going to write a letter and go to bed. Being pregnant makes me extra tired lately.
