Well it would be inappropriate to begin without paying homage to my guys:
"ive got it all... most. ive got it all, almost all figured out. but
always when i get there, always when i get there all the pieces they
just fall apart. i cant hear you, i cant hear you talk about your dreams
involving me; i dont believe i dont believe that they are any sort of
prophecy at all. what a shock its mr. sweet and awful. don't look so
pissed off- we all lose the plot occasionally. how consistant.. how can
someone so consistantly mess up as much as every instance? how can
someone inconsistant mess up so consistantly?" -modest mouse.
New Decade.
I'm not resolving shit. I'm making up my mind to change.
The weight is comin off. I'm tired of it.
The food is gettin healthier (although pricier, which sux).
I'm going to do better at WORK. I should be much more grateful for
it. I don't know what I'd do without the team there; they're more than
co-workers. And the flowers, I love the flowers.
I'm getting my own place. Tax season. I'm staying in Lexington, my
decision is final. I want to see my son as much as possible. I bailed
too much on Maya as a baby. I'm not effin' up twice.
I will remain on good terms with Greg b.c he is still a co-parent and I
love him for all he is, I just want to be loved for all I am, to BE in
love...
I will maintain a 4.0 (3.5 doesn't cut it). And I will finish every class I start.
I will try to be honest without offending. I will stand my ground, even when it feels shaky to me.
I will overcome my fears.
I will GET OFF the soda crack. Well, maybe like 1/week to start.
Those gym passes? Usin em! Starting tomorrow!
Now, inner happiness... well, maybe with practice.
And I will try to continue shaving my legs regularly. Just got a new Venus.
I will have some faith in myself. Respect myself more.
I will be a better me.
-coley
