It Occured to me Today...

i really feel like i have no idea who i am anymore.  i suppose this has a tendency to happen by the time you've had an extra person growing in you for almost 36 weeks. 
someone needs to get this thing outta me.

hello blogging my old friend...

i went to memphis for mt girl's birthday.  the experience was... interesting.  let's just say i returned to my home with a much improved view of my life.  i love my boyfriend very much.  my life is uncomplicated and does not suck.  there's no drama here.  we may not have a lot, or a lot of money, but i am in a better place, and i am striving for better things.  honestly i no longer see myself moving to memphis again unless there is some sort of catastrophe.  my feelings of homesickness on my trip were for my quiet little home with the man i hope to marry and my stinky kitty.
of course, seeing my daughter was amazing, but right now, she really does seem happy where she is.  although my parents are high-stress, high-drama, high-argument people, my bug is taken care of, happy, spoiled to a degree (but still as sweet as pie).  she was the absolute highlight of my trip, and remains my angel.  since i have come back to ky i have called and talked to her almost daily, only missing 2 nights so far.  my relationship with my parents is slowly improving. 
life is changing in my mind, but i am tentatively optimistic.  i keep cutting off my hair b/c i am going to grow it out grey.  i weigh more than i ever have, am terribly pregnantly uncomfortable, and eager to have this kid but terrified at the same time.  also i am still trucking along at lowe's although it may kill me; the job is actually not bad and my coworkers are all pretty nice.  i am craving meat like i haven't in years but even though i have allowed myself some gelatin-containing yummies, i still haven't chewed down any animal flesh.
thats it.

Things About Memphis...

-Beale street is what you look forward to when you turn 21.
-You've had to explain to an out of towner while driving down I-40 that Bellevue Baptist is not an airport.
-All directions start with, "Go down I-240..."
-Everything is Coke
-The 8 a.m. rush hour is from 6:30 a.m. to 9:30 a.m. The 5:00 p.m. rush hour is from 3:30p.m. to 6:30 p.m. ; Friday's rush hour starts Thursday morning.
-"Sir" and "Ma'am" are used by the person speaking to you if there's a remote possibility that you're at least 30 minutes older than they are.
-"Sugar" is a more common form of address than "Miss." So is "Honey," And don't be offended; it is used by both sexes.
-the falling of one raindrop causes all traffic to immediately come to a screeching halt. So will Daylight Savings Time, a girl applying eye shadow across the street, or a flat tire three lanes over. Should (God forbid) one snowflake fall in Memphis, all drivers on the roads immediately lose any ability to control a car. Or, if in a pickup truck or SUV, they will drive as though the roads are dry.
-Nonconnah Parkway (TN-385) is the southern equivalent of the Autobahn. You will rarely see a semi on Nonconnah Parkway, because the truck drivers are intimidated by the oversized SUV-wielding housewives racing home after a grueling day at the salon or the tennis match, to meet their children at the school bus
-You remember the days of Adventure River , and Wild Water and Wheels
- You survived the Ice Storm of '94
-A typical set of Midtown directions may include, "take North Parkway east until you reach East Parkway , then take East Parkway south until you reach South Parkway , then take South Parkway west until you reach...
-Even though it is the largest indoor arena in the region, there is no easy way to reach The Pyramid. You must drive under a series of interstate off-ramps and through the back of a concrete company in order to park. Once you reach the building, you must climb up dozens of steps, even if your seats are at floor level, which means you will be climbing back DOWN dozens of steps after entering the arena
-You know what real Barbecue is.
-You're scared of Germantown Cops
-There is an intersection of two streets near Midtown. The "two" streets are Summer Avenue, North Parkway, Trezevant Blvd., and East Parkway . Again, names change at random. This situation (two intersecting streets with four names) is not atypical. It is common knowledge that Memphis was laid out by a drunk on a crippled horse.
-You went to see the Nutcracker every year from elementary to middle school
-Your proud of the number one violent crime rate Memphis holds. Because that means you survived living in Memphis.
-Rednecks or not, we still can kick your ass.
-you remember when construction on the main library had to stop for about 4 years because the architects didn't take into account the weight of the books.
-Our tap water is like your Evian.
-Our mayor does drugs, how hardcore is that?
-Goin muddin is a sport
-You drive like your gonna kill everyone else.
- The weather doesn't go with the season
- You just call the Mississippi "The River."
- You didn't know that the Old Bridge and the New Bridge had names.
-All year long you look forward to May... because Music fest is in May
-you've had to switch the thermostat from heat to air-conditioning in the same day
- you can say "Take Poplar" and get anywhere from anywhere.
- 201 poplar is one place you don't want to visit
- everyone hates the mayor, yet somehow, we are still under the reign of King Willy
-You know what VooDoo Village is.. Double points if you've actually been to VooDoo Village.. Triple points if a bus rolled out in front of you.
-You've never been to Graceland .
-When you wait in line for 30 mins for Fast Food
-Remember the Mall of Murder
- Orange Mound and Nutbush aren't things to be laughing about.
- University of Memphis is known as Tiger High.

cough, cough...

your names were lovely.  especially falkor, but i have some friends who just named their kid atreyu so... no.  teehee, i'm not kidding, they did.  g thinks it's weird of me to not name my kid before it's born.  he wants a name picked out, so we discussed it, came to a decision... i told him he could tell people and everything.  so even though it makes my palms sweat, we have a name  thank you, craig t. nelson.  the middle name is my artistic liscence, i get to pick it and reserve the right to change it up until it goes on the certificate, so that's anyone's guess.  g's last name, he insists, saying it's only fair b/c my girl has my last name and this is his first child.  so...  i am being (gulp) decisive.
in other news, g's working a second job and i'm really lonely.  pulling in 30 hour work weeks still leaves too much time for my idle brain.  there's a mama cat in my house with 5 6 wk old kittens, they're ready to go, i'll fedex you one, any takers?
i'm about 24 weeks preggo and this is by far my chunkiest pregnancy.  it's all slimquick and exercise and tube tying after this.  i'm so sick of people asking me if there's only one baby in there.   i drank a lot of empty carbs before, people!  g-d! 
i cannot live in kentucky.  i told g i will try not to complain until our lease is up but a big part of my unhappiness involves being here.  i have met a couple of nice people, but i dont fit in, and the word vegetarian is unheard of.  this is not my home.  i dont belong... no matter how hard i try.  tonya, my first ky friend, is cool, and the people she's related to/knows...  but i told greg when the lease is up, i'm going.  i don't care if i have to stuggle to get on my feet somewhere else.  i want to go back to memphis (yes, i mean it) but he would never ever in a bazillion years comply with moving there. 
that's all for now.  tomorrow begins my lowe's work week, yay.

My Aching Feet

i am so glad i'm working.  spending my days with people, making money.  i seem to have a tendency to sleep through alarm clocks, though.  and my increased size makes my feet achey.  but all in all it's cool and i like putting together a lowe's, seeing the shelves fill up.  good times. 
i need ideas for boy names.  dont flake out.