my sweetie pie left jackson hole just a bit ago. he's on his way to kentucky. i am tryin to be patient as i wait for the cornbread and white beans to be done, so i can have a healthy-ish bite before i go to work. this pregnancy is going to make my ass huger than it has ever been. teensy baby demands chocolate, and lots of it, and i am not even big on chocolate. milkshakes... mmm. i have been cravin milkshakes and pb&j sandwiches.
work is such an odd place. now that i'm a perma-employee, i am not supposed to transfer for 6 whole months. that's a long time. i don't know if i can wait that long to leave memphris. there is so much hilarity in the corporate world; it's crazy. with so many employees in one store, it never gets dull.
today i am benadryl-ed up and i feel really weird and i have to go to work and that's really uncool. but as much as i would love to sleep, i cannot do it. i gotta keep movin. slowly but surely, just the way greg is driving across these u. states.
***yawn***
31 May 2007
29 May 2007
my sexy man
i am havin the baby of a wonderful man. i am so lovin him. he's leaving the j hole tomorrow to come to kentucky. although there are many reasons why i dont particularly want to go there, there is a HUGE reason i should: he really believes it is what's best for maya and the two of us.
this decision is being met with huge disapproval from every direction. my parents, particularly my mother, are wiggin out. bad. i mean, they may try to start up another custody fight, and i am NOT down for that. i cannot take that. but i cannot let them bully me into staying in memphis either.
i will be leaving my entire family. my friends. the people who love my daughter and have since the day she was born. all to be with greg, to take a chance, to start a life. i'm doing it voluntarily. i have to be positive that it's what's best for maya... that greg is going to be in it with me for the long haul. like... rest of my life long.
in other news... the season finale of "house" is on tonite. i love this show. i have become addicted.
oh, and i did a survey recently where i said i thought i would rock on "road rules" and i thought maybe i would be good on "trading spouses"... if i was married. i guess my life is a bit too tumultuous for me to be on there anyway. whatever.
i have not been feeling very well today. i feel spitty and gross. i have eaten almost an entire square package of saltines. one of em, not all four in the box. that would be an obscene amount of crackers. for some reason i have only felt like eating shitty stuff. i had a baked potato for lunch. i had fries for dinner. i just ate some mozzarella sticks. now i just want some freakin veggies or something.
i really need to get naked with my man. i mean.. this is gettin insane. ahhh! AAARUGH!!!
i quit smoking again today.
i also filed for lost title of my truck. wonder how long this is going to take?
duuuude!!! "hells kictchen" is returning! for some reason i really dug that show. you can tell i'm doing more than one thing right now eh? oh well.
this decision is being met with huge disapproval from every direction. my parents, particularly my mother, are wiggin out. bad. i mean, they may try to start up another custody fight, and i am NOT down for that. i cannot take that. but i cannot let them bully me into staying in memphis either.
i will be leaving my entire family. my friends. the people who love my daughter and have since the day she was born. all to be with greg, to take a chance, to start a life. i'm doing it voluntarily. i have to be positive that it's what's best for maya... that greg is going to be in it with me for the long haul. like... rest of my life long.
in other news... the season finale of "house" is on tonite. i love this show. i have become addicted.
oh, and i did a survey recently where i said i thought i would rock on "road rules" and i thought maybe i would be good on "trading spouses"... if i was married. i guess my life is a bit too tumultuous for me to be on there anyway. whatever.
i have not been feeling very well today. i feel spitty and gross. i have eaten almost an entire square package of saltines. one of em, not all four in the box. that would be an obscene amount of crackers. for some reason i have only felt like eating shitty stuff. i had a baked potato for lunch. i had fries for dinner. i just ate some mozzarella sticks. now i just want some freakin veggies or something.
i really need to get naked with my man. i mean.. this is gettin insane. ahhh! AAARUGH!!!
i quit smoking again today.
i also filed for lost title of my truck. wonder how long this is going to take?
duuuude!!! "hells kictchen" is returning! for some reason i really dug that show. you can tell i'm doing more than one thing right now eh? oh well.
who writes these and why do i care about answering them?
1. Do you prefer to be called sexy or beautiful?
i dunno. if its some perv, not sexy
2. What is your favorite nickname someone has made for you?
cole
3. If you get a custom made license plate, what would you want it to say?
lol. i dunno. i saw one at a rainbow gathering once that said "luvinu"! nice.
4. Do you prefer reading out loud or in your head?
in my head, although i am great at reading aloud
5. When your parents fight how nasty does it get?
jesus. it's wretched.
6. When's the last time you ate a chocolate chip muffin?
damn that sounds good.
7. What was your dream job when you were a child? Is it still the same?
farmer. i would like to do it, but not like i used to picture it... now i want to have my own land and work it. i'm such an effin hippie.
8. It's all about the third sequels these days. Which one are you most interested in?
shrek the third.
9. How often do you get your hair cut?
hardly ever, but then i recently hacked it all off.
10. How much are you willing to pay for a pair of jeans?
um, 20 bucks or so. if it was someone else's money, more. i usually get kicked down jeans. in fact, the only pair i have were my cousin's.
13. Do you believe life exists on other planets?
i don't disbelieve it.
14. If you won a million dollars, what would you do first?
oh man... so many things. pay off all my debt, woohoo! then start hookin it up! wow... just thinkin about it too much is makin me kinda super excited, so i'm stopping.
15. Which reality TV show could you picture yourself being on?
haha! um... ROAD RULES! i was made for that show ma'an!
18. What does love mean to you?
finding your soul's counterpart in another, in terms of a relationship. i think there can be more than one great match though, which trickifies things up. in terms of loving others, it means putting their happiness before yours. what sucks is when it happens to be that lots of the people you love have conflicting ideas of happiness.
19. How old were you when you found out Santa Claus wasn't real?
no idea.
21. What do you do to cure your hiccups?
um...usually try holding my breath or drinking water.. but i dont bother if it's not long-lasting...
22. Do you get distracted easily?
depends. like right now, it's time for "house" and i am going to stare at it.
23. What was your favorite backstreet boy when you were younger?
i didn't like them, ever.
24. Have you ever been stung by a jellyfish?
no. my sis was though. so was my cousin jojo. not on the same day. heard if you pee on a jellyfish sting it helps.
25. What food do you hate?
all things meat
26. When you procrastinate what do you usually do?
this and more this.
28. Is the weather nice outside?
it needs to fuckin RAIN!!!!
29. Where is your sister right now?
in wyoming.
30. If your life was a movie, what would the genre be?
superdrama.
31. Do you smoke at least one cigarette a day?
no
32. Are you any good at singing?
i dont think so, no. i love greg's voice though. love it when i catch him singin. i like to sing too, but i think i'm pretty tone deaf. teehee. so what? not like dylan has the greatest voice. love HIM...
34. Have you ever failed a grade?
no.
35. What's the weirdest thing you've seen in the past week?
a giant hershey kiss mobile driving down the street.
36. Do you know anybody who has committed suicide?
yes
39. Do you have x in your screenname?
nope
i dunno. if its some perv, not sexy
2. What is your favorite nickname someone has made for you?
cole
3. If you get a custom made license plate, what would you want it to say?
lol. i dunno. i saw one at a rainbow gathering once that said "luvinu"! nice.
4. Do you prefer reading out loud or in your head?
in my head, although i am great at reading aloud
5. When your parents fight how nasty does it get?
jesus. it's wretched.
6. When's the last time you ate a chocolate chip muffin?
damn that sounds good.
7. What was your dream job when you were a child? Is it still the same?
farmer. i would like to do it, but not like i used to picture it... now i want to have my own land and work it. i'm such an effin hippie.
8. It's all about the third sequels these days. Which one are you most interested in?
shrek the third.
9. How often do you get your hair cut?
hardly ever, but then i recently hacked it all off.
10. How much are you willing to pay for a pair of jeans?
um, 20 bucks or so. if it was someone else's money, more. i usually get kicked down jeans. in fact, the only pair i have were my cousin's.
13. Do you believe life exists on other planets?
i don't disbelieve it.
14. If you won a million dollars, what would you do first?
oh man... so many things. pay off all my debt, woohoo! then start hookin it up! wow... just thinkin about it too much is makin me kinda super excited, so i'm stopping.
15. Which reality TV show could you picture yourself being on?
haha! um... ROAD RULES! i was made for that show ma'an!
18. What does love mean to you?
finding your soul's counterpart in another, in terms of a relationship. i think there can be more than one great match though, which trickifies things up. in terms of loving others, it means putting their happiness before yours. what sucks is when it happens to be that lots of the people you love have conflicting ideas of happiness.
19. How old were you when you found out Santa Claus wasn't real?
no idea.
21. What do you do to cure your hiccups?
um...usually try holding my breath or drinking water.. but i dont bother if it's not long-lasting...
22. Do you get distracted easily?
depends. like right now, it's time for "house" and i am going to stare at it.
23. What was your favorite backstreet boy when you were younger?
i didn't like them, ever.
24. Have you ever been stung by a jellyfish?
no. my sis was though. so was my cousin jojo. not on the same day. heard if you pee on a jellyfish sting it helps.
25. What food do you hate?
all things meat
26. When you procrastinate what do you usually do?
this and more this.
28. Is the weather nice outside?
it needs to fuckin RAIN!!!!
29. Where is your sister right now?
in wyoming.
30. If your life was a movie, what would the genre be?
superdrama.
31. Do you smoke at least one cigarette a day?
no
32. Are you any good at singing?
i dont think so, no. i love greg's voice though. love it when i catch him singin. i like to sing too, but i think i'm pretty tone deaf. teehee. so what? not like dylan has the greatest voice. love HIM...
34. Have you ever failed a grade?
no.
35. What's the weirdest thing you've seen in the past week?
a giant hershey kiss mobile driving down the street.
36. Do you know anybody who has committed suicide?
yes
39. Do you have x in your screenname?
nope
watchin law & order
1. What do you say most when you're trying not to curse?
:: sweet niblets! crapit! frick!
2. Do You Own An Ipod?
:: yes
3. What Person On Your Top 8 on Myspace Do You Talk To The Most?
:: amy, online...
4. What Time Is Your Alarm Clock Set To?
:: diff times diff days
5. Do You Want To Fall In Love?
:: i am in love
6. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's Cold?
:: sometimes, with toe socks
7. Would You Rather Take The Picture Or Be In The Picture?
:: whichever
8. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
:: uh... i dunno
9. Do Any Of Your Friends Have Children?
:: yes
10. Has Anyone Ever Called You Lazy?
:: yeah
11. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?
:: yep
12. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?
:: chocolate, sometimes
13. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?
:: uh... i dont think so
14. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
:: a few weeks ago
15. Can You Whistle?
:: yep, but only inhaling
16. Do You Have A Trampoline In Your Back Yard?
:: no
17. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
:: prolly at work
19. Did You Watch Cartoons As A Child?
:: yes. yes i did. do i still? yes. yes i do.
20. What Movie Do You Know Every Line To?
:: lots of em.
23. Do You Own Any Band T-Shirts?
:: gratefuldead ones
24. What Is Your Favorite Salad Dressing?
:: newmans own lowfat rasp walnut vinaigrette
25. Is anyone in love with you?
:: yes
26. Do You Do Your Own Dishes?
:: yeah, by putting them in the diswsasher
27. Ever Cry In Public?
:: uh huh, when emotion comes it spills out
30. Do you think you could ever be in love?
:: i am
31. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
:: not covered like the guys that go on maury that are like lizard men. but i am luvin my man and his sexy tats. junkman is not something i want him to get though.
32. What Did You Do Before This?
:: ate some cheesesticks. word of advice: tgi friday's home oven chzsticks aren't so very good
33. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?
:: uh... i'm not sure.
34. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?
:: 7-9
35. Do you eat breakfast daily?
:: not really. nothing you would consider breakfast.
36. Are Your Days Full And Fast Paced?
:: christsakes yes.
37. What are you doing right now?
:: typing this, listening to law & order
38. Do you use sarcasm?
:: i'm afraid so much that it comes out as my natural tone
40. Are You Picky About Spelling And Grammar?
:: it makes me insane
41. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?
:: nope
41. Have you ever got beaten up?
:: no. that'd be terrible.
42. Do you like Rain or Sun?
:: it depends. they both have great points.
43. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?
:: both
44. Do you like mustard?
:: yes. wow, that was random
45. Do You Sleep On Your Side, Stomach, Or Back?
:: i flop around
46. Do You Watch The news?
:: not particularly
47. How Did You Get One Of Your Scars?
:: swimming in pickwick late barefoot, i cut two toes with glass
48. Who Was The Last Person To Make You Mad?
:: doesnt matter
49. Do you like anyone?
:: i like lots of people
50.Whats the last thing you purchased?
:: uh... nightgowns for maya, then wendy's
:: sweet niblets! crapit! frick!
2. Do You Own An Ipod?
:: yes
3. What Person On Your Top 8 on Myspace Do You Talk To The Most?
:: amy, online...
4. What Time Is Your Alarm Clock Set To?
:: diff times diff days
5. Do You Want To Fall In Love?
:: i am in love
6. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's Cold?
:: sometimes, with toe socks
7. Would You Rather Take The Picture Or Be In The Picture?
:: whichever
8. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
:: uh... i dunno
9. Do Any Of Your Friends Have Children?
:: yes
10. Has Anyone Ever Called You Lazy?
:: yeah
11. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?
:: yep
12. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?
:: chocolate, sometimes
13. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?
:: uh... i dont think so
14. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
:: a few weeks ago
15. Can You Whistle?
:: yep, but only inhaling
16. Do You Have A Trampoline In Your Back Yard?
:: no
17. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
:: prolly at work
19. Did You Watch Cartoons As A Child?
:: yes. yes i did. do i still? yes. yes i do.
20. What Movie Do You Know Every Line To?
:: lots of em.
23. Do You Own Any Band T-Shirts?
:: gratefuldead ones
24. What Is Your Favorite Salad Dressing?
:: newmans own lowfat rasp walnut vinaigrette
25. Is anyone in love with you?
:: yes
26. Do You Do Your Own Dishes?
:: yeah, by putting them in the diswsasher
27. Ever Cry In Public?
:: uh huh, when emotion comes it spills out
30. Do you think you could ever be in love?
:: i am
31. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
:: not covered like the guys that go on maury that are like lizard men. but i am luvin my man and his sexy tats. junkman is not something i want him to get though.
32. What Did You Do Before This?
:: ate some cheesesticks. word of advice: tgi friday's home oven chzsticks aren't so very good
33. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?
:: uh... i'm not sure.
34. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?
:: 7-9
35. Do you eat breakfast daily?
:: not really. nothing you would consider breakfast.
36. Are Your Days Full And Fast Paced?
:: christsakes yes.
37. What are you doing right now?
:: typing this, listening to law & order
38. Do you use sarcasm?
:: i'm afraid so much that it comes out as my natural tone
40. Are You Picky About Spelling And Grammar?
:: it makes me insane
41. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?
:: nope
41. Have you ever got beaten up?
:: no. that'd be terrible.
42. Do you like Rain or Sun?
:: it depends. they both have great points.
43. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?
:: both
44. Do you like mustard?
:: yes. wow, that was random
45. Do You Sleep On Your Side, Stomach, Or Back?
:: i flop around
46. Do You Watch The news?
:: not particularly
47. How Did You Get One Of Your Scars?
:: swimming in pickwick late barefoot, i cut two toes with glass
48. Who Was The Last Person To Make You Mad?
:: doesnt matter
49. Do you like anyone?
:: i like lots of people
50.Whats the last thing you purchased?
:: uh... nightgowns for maya, then wendy's
28 May 2007
30
30 unknown facts about myself:
1. Who ended your last relationship?
it went to shit. i think we both did.
2. When was the last time you shaved your legs?
i dunno
3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?
layin in bed thinking of greg. i had a dream about our baby.
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
i was at walgreens
5. Are you any good at math?
algebra
6. What were you doing last night?
working.. then i went out with maya
7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
nope
8. Have you ever burped in front of the opposite sex?
well yea
9. Do you know the words to your myspace song?
yes
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
water, dr pepper
12. What's one thing you wish to change about yourself?
my inability to say the right thing. ever.
13. What do you wish for?
i wish for a happy life with greg in lexington & for us to have a great family.
14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
yep
15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
braces
16. What is outside your back door?
maya and some little girls playing.
17. Any plans for Friday night?
nope
18. Plans for tomorrow?
lots of errands.
19. Do you have a secret crush?
no
20. Do you keep in touch with your ex's?
only cause I have to
21. Do you dislike anyone right now?
yes
22. Something you are excited about?
seeing my sexy ass boyf... if he still is my man, i dunno.. i've not heard from him in 2 days.
23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
dont eat it
24. Are any of your great-grandparents alive?
no
25. Describe your key chain?
it has a yellow wyoming thing on it to remind me where i left my heart. and the remote to my car.
27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group?
i dunno.
28. What kind of jacket do you have on?
red baller jacket.
29. Do you have any nicknames?
nic, cole
30. Can you tie a cherry stem in a knot with your tongue?
nope.
1. Who ended your last relationship?
it went to shit. i think we both did.
2. When was the last time you shaved your legs?
i dunno
3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?
layin in bed thinking of greg. i had a dream about our baby.
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
i was at walgreens
5. Are you any good at math?
algebra
6. What were you doing last night?
working.. then i went out with maya
7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
nope
8. Have you ever burped in front of the opposite sex?
well yea
9. Do you know the words to your myspace song?
yes
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
water, dr pepper
12. What's one thing you wish to change about yourself?
my inability to say the right thing. ever.
13. What do you wish for?
i wish for a happy life with greg in lexington & for us to have a great family.
14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
yep
15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
braces
16. What is outside your back door?
maya and some little girls playing.
17. Any plans for Friday night?
nope
18. Plans for tomorrow?
lots of errands.
19. Do you have a secret crush?
no
20. Do you keep in touch with your ex's?
only cause I have to
21. Do you dislike anyone right now?
yes
22. Something you are excited about?
seeing my sexy ass boyf... if he still is my man, i dunno.. i've not heard from him in 2 days.
23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
dont eat it
24. Are any of your great-grandparents alive?
no
25. Describe your key chain?
it has a yellow wyoming thing on it to remind me where i left my heart. and the remote to my car.
27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group?
i dunno.
28. What kind of jacket do you have on?
red baller jacket.
29. Do you have any nicknames?
nic, cole
30. Can you tie a cherry stem in a knot with your tongue?
nope.
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