i've gone back to work once again. it's nice to be outside again. i
knew it would be difficult.. greg gets home to keep haden right as it's
time for me to leave. yesterday was our first weekday with this new
situation and i must say, it's going to be rough.
i'm so tired.
my body hurts, but that's ok; i know my aching muscles need to be
utilized. maybe some of the weight i've gained will start to go away. i
am grateful for the health to be outside in the conditions the nursery
provides, which can be harsh under the sun in the south.
the
garden center is just now beginning to get in all the annuals and there
is color everywhere. the trees are blooming and anytime i like, i can
walk by the trees for the scent of cherry blossoms floating on the
breeze. bees fly off of the salvia as i water and hover around me, and i
don't worry because i know they understand that i'm not there to hurt
them, i'm helping their pollen source stay healthy. they're tiny allies
and i feel like they know i appreciate them and care for the flowers.
there is a large demand for straw and i love climbing into the
trailer and climbing all over the bails and hauling them out. it
reminds me of childhood, of hay rides. the smell is comforting.
at night when the lights go off and i see the moon rise above the
tables of plants and rows of trees. last night it was a cheshire cat
smile. the air was cool after a perfect, mild day.
they call
the summer months at lowe's the "hundred days of hell", but it's my time
to shine. it does get insanely busy, hot, hectic, and chaotic. i do
get scraped, cut, scratched, dirty, sore, blistered, bruised, and
sunburned (no matter how much sunblock i wear), then weathered and tan.
i have to scrub my fingernails and toenails in the shower every night,
wash the layers of dirt off of me, cold cream my burned face. the
management really under-pays and under-appreciates. i feel like a
mexican laborer at times. but the customers, the nice ones, are so
great. they're fun to help and i love how excited people feel about
planting. i enjoy being able to assist someone in planting something
living in the earth and helping it flourish.
i'm loving it
today. in another month it'll all be bitching, but i love that i have
it to bitch about, as little sense as that makes. i miss my old sales
supervisor debi. i wonder about her, and mike the team leader too.
they both taught me so much about my job. i miss the memphis lowes and
the crazy coworkers. living and working in a small town store that's
about 80,000 square feet smaller is a very different experience. but i
have met some cool people, like sierra, who is still getting used to
kentucky like me, and kari, who somehow manages to keep long fancy ass
painted/glittered nails even though she's a hands-on sales supervisor.
also, i would rather be busy any day at a job than look at my watch
over and over, wondering why the time is dragging by so slowly. i am
so tired and it's only just now beginning...
and i am trying to start school too.
